A Letter to God from a Rape Victim.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: GET2THE Truth
Date: Jan 28, 2009 7:11 PM


Please pray for me...
Even though it's been ten years...
I'm still so numb from this attack...
*********I called Home today God...
So glad You answered...
SO Glad You were Home
It's been ten years today...
Since I was drugged, raped & held captive for 8 hours…
My sister & I had gone out to celebrate
She went home with someone and I was left to catch a cab...

Only a cab was never called...
For
there was an evil man...
who had plans for me...
He feigned Musical interest for his sons...'when in all reality...
he meant harm from the get go
Without You God...
I would NEVER have made it through the ordeal that still haunts me today
What did he put in my drink he served me that evening…
I remember taking one sip…
It tasted so bitter…
I didn’t drink anymore…
But…
That was all it took…
The next thing I remembered was waking up and he was on top of me
Laughing…
Because now…aware of what was going on…
I was pushing him off…and crying NO!
He laughed saying
Come on…Ashley…
Come on…
You weren’t saying that earlier…
“Yeah, I know…I was unconscious from the drugs you served me in your restaurant…”
I got away that day…
I got to the hospital,
The police were called
The rapist was picked up…
And during the trial…
He admitted under oath that I had said No…several times…
But
He did it anyway…
Then because of certain technicalities in the State I was living in at that time…
He was found Not guilty…
YEAH I probably could have lived with that…although hard as it was…I would have gone on…
It’s what the Judge did after he announced the verdict that changed my life as I knew it…forever…

He walked over to the rapist…and said…
Out loud for ALL to hear…
“Hey man…Way to go…
Congratulations on winning your case in my courtroom…” Then he shook his hand…
To say I was floored…is putting it mildly.
The State Atty…the Victim Advocate and everyone in the courtroom…that heard it as well as the Victim…were stunned!
That’s why I called You God…
So glad You were Home…
I just wanted to make sure You were still there…
Because without You
God...
I wont make it through the next three days...

I'm sick to my stomach...
I can't eat...
I feel a knot in my throat...
I'm scared

yet I'm not!

Help me Lord...
Help me through these next three days...
Oh God …
Please Help me through the Rest of my life
And if my stories of survival
Can help yet one more…
I Trust YOU to get them to the right ears & eyes…

Your Daughter...
Ashley