Conversation with God by a Victim.

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From: GET2THE Truth (414419033)
To: Sojourner Truth
Date: Mar 14, 2009 7:02 PM
Subject: A JUN 08 CONVERSATION WITH God


(Hi...I wrote this conversation to God in June...of last year & thought you would like to see it, b4 I blogged it...
Hope you like sharing in it...
This is something I lived through ...Oma is german for Grandma...)
I have not blogged this yet...but wanted to share it with you before I wrote it to anyone else...Please tell me what you think...Thanks
ASH
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MY SISTERS ARE ALL MAD AT ME GOD...
BECAUSE I TOLD WHAT DADDY DID...
DADDY LOVES ME ...
BUT HE LOVES ME A DIFFERENT WAY FROM THEM

MY MOM DOES NOT LOVE ME...
THE SAME AS SHE LOVES MY SISTERS
I THINK DADDY HURT HER
WHEN HE TOLD HER
I HAVE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BROWN EYES...

I'M SORRY MOMMY..
I DID NOT ASK YOUR HUSBAND TO EXCLUDE YOU
HE SAID YOU DID THAT ALL ON YOUR OWN
HE TOLD ME
YOU NO LONGER CARE FOR HIS GESTURES
OF LOVE
YOU JUST AREN'T LOVING AT ALL
HOW WAS I TO KNOW
HE WAS LYING ALL ALONG...
I WAS JUST A CHILD
HIS VICTIM AFTER ALL

GOD...WHY DOES DADDY TALK TO ME LIKE THAT
I'M TOO YOUNG TO UNDERSTAND...
ALL I KNOW IS I'M DADDY'S SPECIAL GIRL
BUT NOW LOOKING BACK
I SEE THAT IT WAS NOT SPECIAL AT ALL...
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I'M NOT A LITTLE GIRL ANYMORE...
I'M LIVING WITH A FRIEND
HE FORBIDS ME CONTACT
WITH MY FAMILY ALL THE TIME...

I KEEP ON THINKING IF ONLY I HADN'T DONE THIS OR THAT
IF ONLY I HAD BEEN
THE GOOD LITTLE GIRL
MY MOM AND DAD
WOULD HAVE LOVED ME
IN THE NORMAL PARENT CHILD WAY......
OR WOULD THEY HAVE ...
ONLY YOU KNOW...
GOD???
ARE YOU THERE???

NOW HERE I AM
WINCING BECAUSE
HE IS THREATENING THEM AGAIN...
HERE IS WHAT HE SAYS

"I FORBID YOU TO SEE YOUR PARENTS
IF I SEE YOUR CAR IN FRONT OF THEIR HOUSE
AND IT DOES NOT MATTER WHERE YOU GO
I WILL FIND YOU AND I WILL KNOW

I WILL HARM YOUR OMA WHO IS IN THE NURSING HOME
NO ONE WILL STOP ME
AFTER ALL I AM AN RN! AND
YOU WILL GET THE BLAME"

MY OMA DIES THE NEXT DAY
I MISSED SEEING HER
IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY
I TRIED OH GOD I DID

MY HEAD IS HURTING
MY ARMS SO SORE
THE BRUISE IS RISING RAPIDLY
AND ALL I CAN THINK OF IS...

I NEED TO MAKE THIS OKAY...
I FEEL SO GUILTY
IF I CAN TAKE THE BLAME
MAYBE JUST MAYBE
HE WONT BE MAD AT ME...AND
MAYBE JUST MAYBE
HE'LL LOVE ME TODAY

BY A SURVIVOR OF HELL
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